Posts Tagged ‘mmj’

Cannabis Cured My Anxiety Attack


I had an anxiety attack this morning while making breakfast. It wasn’t about my impending day or the act of making breakfast but rather an intense internal negative feeling that came over my entire body. I started to shake, my heart started to race, and my breathing became shallow and tight. I may have dry heaved. Totally not normal. It is rare for me to get a full blown anxiety attack but this served as a reminder that I have a special brain and it requires daily attention.

I don’t like to say this out loud, but I am a fairly anxious person. I am plagued with a daily low level anxiety due to physiological stress that my body is under from a neuromuscular disorder. This little body of mine has been dealing with that type of constant stress since before I was even a teenager. I manage to keep a calm, cool, positive exterior but if you spend enough time with me you will be exposed to moments where the anxiety that dwells within my body escapes in various forms. It never feels pretty.

Right about now, I would like to interject that I hate writing about this. I hate letting you in on this part of me because it feels so negative and dark and I just don’t tell people this stuff. I much prefer spreading light but I know that somebody else out there is living with this most bizarre thing too and could benefit from feeling that they are not alone.

I am grateful to be aware of how special my brain is. I am very aware that it likes to send jacked up messages to my body all day long and tell it to do things a normal body is not supposed to do. It is very stressful on a level that is hard to explain to somebody who has never gone through it. I take this type of stress seriously because I know that it is the silent killer that would put me to my grave long before my spinal disorder ever could. This condition of mine benefits from cannabis because it calms down my inside self, allowing for a feeling of normal to exist.

How do I use cannabis for anxiety? Multiple ways…

First, let me say if you are eating or inhaling it specifically to manage anxiety, what strain you choose can be a big deal. Everybody reacts differently to different strains but for some people certain strains may actually increase feelings of anxiety. I personally  cannot recall any strain ever giving me anxiety but I’ve seen it in other people.

Delivery method makes a difference in how it works too. In the moment, I inhale. Within minutes, mental and often physical anxiety is relieved. For several hours of relief, a CBD or sativa dominant hybrid strain might be put into my food. If I have 20 minutes, I will take a medicated bath or apply a topical all over. When I have access to it, I will take raw cannabis daily which noticeably keeps my body in a generally calmer state.

Cannabis allows me to stay on track with the other powerful methods I use to manage anxiety and stress. Meditation, movement, nutrition, laughing enough, and getting sleep is key to dominating this chronic condition. If I don’t get enough of all of those, after a short time, you guessed it,  the internal anxiety grows and escapes.

If you medicate to relieve anxiety, may you never feel bad or ashamed for doing so. Stress is a killer, literally.

And…To all the people who look out for me and aid in my mission to live calmly, thank you.


The Cannabis Farmer’s Market With Healthy Habits

Sonshine Organics

Every Saturday, Sonshine Organics in Olympia, WA holds a medicinal cannabis farmer’s market. I dig this place. When you walk into the door you see a wall of fitness equipment behind the cannabis farmers who are there with various strains and medicines that they provide.

The vibe here is very different from other cannabis markets that I have been to. From the feeling of family, to the on-site chiropractor, and the free raw cannabis juice for market goers it becomes clear why the energy here is so uplifted. They are focused on health and bringing their own journey’s as patients to the community as a means to help themselves and others heal.

Within the market there is a medicating lounge and live music where patients can find the moral support to deal with their health conditions and heal together.

Beyond being a cannabis market they passionately recommend 7 doctors to everybody:  Sunshine, Air, Rest, Water, Exercise, Diet, and Cannabis. I love that.

Next weekend they are hosting Hempseed 2014. Hempseed is an annual alternative health and hemp education event that is open to the public and will include special performances by the very patients that Sonshine Organics serves, their cancer-surviving children.

Thank you, Sonshine Organics for being such powerful ambassadors for health, wellness, community, and cannabis.


Visiting Farmer Tom’s Organic Cannabis and Vegetable Farm

Farmer Toms's cannabis garden

For the past year, every time I have talked to Farmer Tom he has invited me down to visit his farm in Vancouver, Washington. This week I finally made the drive, and am I ever glad I did.

What used to be an old nursery in the country has become the spot that Farmer Tom and his wife call home. It is also the location that he grows food to feed multiple families and cannabis to afford the costs of operating such a farm.

When we got to his property, Farmer Tom took us on a walking tour of the cannabis and vegetable gardens and shared with us his methods for growing organically and sustainably. It was a delight to be able to see so many different varieties of cannabis and vegetables and experience what they look like as they grow.

I was impressed with the simplicity and calm of his operation. From just a few minutes of walking through the garden with Farmer Tom I was able to learn much from his decades of experience about how cannabis grows and a way of growing that I had never seen in person before.

I appreciate what Farmer Tom is doing with his farm. He is growing natural, organic medicine in the form of cannabis and vegetables and he is branding himself to swim in the world of marijuana business to save his farm from financial hardship so he will be able to continue feeding others and helping sick people.

Lately, he has also partnered with Kush Tours and opened up his farm to the public who can now come down to the farm and see it for themselves. The tour walks you through the whole farm and is about 90 minutes long.

Thank you Farmer Tom and your lovely wife for hospitably welcoming us, showing us what is possible with organic gardening, and sending us home with a cooler of delicious vegetables.


TwiceBaked Adventures with The Squares


I have to admit, in most circles, I often appear as a ‘square’. By ‘square’ I mean that I don’t look like the stereotypical stoner associated with marijuana use. The majority of my close friends, including The Boy, don’t use cannabis. However, since immersing myself into the cannabis culture I now have another social circle who is all about cannabis and I find my square looking world and the cannabis culture colliding more frequently.

Today was a prime example. I am hosting a lunch with my cannabis smoking friends, eating cannabis delectables, in a house that wreaks like cannabis. Just as the lunch is winding down a ‘square’ long-time professional aquaintance walks up to my front door with his teenage son. Now, this is a person who shows up randomly about once a year when he is in the neighborhood and today happened to be that day this year. As far as I know he would have no idea about why my house would be smelling like marijuana in the middle of the day or why I am having a cannabis luncheon. I met them outside so as to avoid exposing the child to such horrors and quite honestly to avoid having that conversation right then and there. Collision averted.

I guess this kind of stuff happens a lot when you juggle multiple social circles. Some of my clients don’t know or have only recently learned about this side of my life. I like to feel out the depth of cannabis conversation they might be ready for by recommending that they add hemp to their meals. I’m always surprised how many people shrug back at the idea of eating hemp because they are afraid it will make them high or put THC in their system and risk their livelihood. These are educated squares too. In the end they all eventually eat the hemp. 

I totally consider finding those moments where people see cannabis in a positive light for the first time as an amusing adventure. The key is not to cram it down their throat but be discreet and open to showing them how much it benefits you.



Raw Cannabis Flower and Hemp Pesto


I enjoy the taste of raw cannabis. It has a bold, spicy flavor that pairs well with other foods and herbs to enhance and add nutritive value to a good meal. While, at this time, I generally only eat raw cannabis leaves, every once in a while I am lucky enough to gain access to fresh edible cannabis flowers.

If you are eating the raw buds, it is suggested they be at the state where the trichomes are fully present and appear cloudy, not yet amber. Raw buds have a high concentration of cannabinoids in their acid form (ie, THCA) and when eaten fresh, with no heat applied, provide you many health benefits without the psychoactive action of THC.

Raw Cannabis Flower and Hemp Pesto

1C Basil

1C Parsley

3/4C Fresh, raw Cannabis buds (or fresh leaves)

1/4C hemp hearts

1/4C walnuts

3 cloves garlic

3T Lemon juice

1/3C hemp seed oil

salt and pepper

1)Put all ingredients into a food processor and blend until desired smoothness. If needed, add more lemon juice and/or hemp seed oil to thin the mixture out.

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This little pesto paired as well with steak and cooked vegetables as it did with a fresh garden salad. Cannabis pesto on everything!



Why I Use Cannabis For Scoliosis

MMJ Lemon Lavender Hemp Cookies

When somebody by the name of SafeTdriver did something nice for me this week, I responded by wanting to make him some one-of-a-kind medicated cookies.

Now, some of you may know SafeTdriver. He has a YouTube channel where you can see him medicating with cannabis, creating original hemp macrome everything, and educating the world about how he has been able to get off of pharmaceutical drugs for Crohn’s disease.

SafeTdriver’s hemp work is beautiful and that is why I went to him looking for advice on how I might build a hemp boa. While all I was looking for was advice, instead of throwing me a suggestion he sent me a picture of the boa that he had already started for me. I kind of freaked out, in a good way.

What does one do for somebody who is building a piece that will be in my closet forever and with me on many, many adventures? I build them hemp cookies. Or in this case, medicated hemp cookies.

I needed to put a little thought into the ingredients since he does have Crohn’s disease and has a very sensitive digestive system. He kind of needs to eat the same as me except that he is sensitive to fiber. I asked him if he could tolerate the vegetable glycerin tincture and he told me that it was fine if he limited his sugar intake that day. Good to know.

Raw Lemon Lavender Hemp Cannabis Cookies

1/2C raw cashews, finely chopped

1/2C raw almonds, finely chopped

1/3C hemp hearts

1 lemon, juiced and zested

2 T maca

3T raw honey

4T chia seeds, soaked in about 1/4C water

1-25ml bottle of Cannabis and Lavender glycerin tincture (I used the whole thing)

1) Soak the chia seeds until they have absorbed all of the water. Add more if needed to create a thick pudding like consistency.

2) Combine all of the ingredients and mix well. Chill in the fridge.

3) Place all cookie dough on a piece of parchment paper and  form into a roll. Slice into cookies and place into a food dehydrator for about 7 hours.


I like how these turned out. Not too sweet or too tart and just the right amount of lavender. The hardest part was waiting for them to be done and hoping that they will be Safety approved.

I appreciate kind, creative people so much and love how they how they can go through this world peacefully spreading imagination and goodness.

SafeTdriver, thank you for bringing more positivity to this world while you hemp your way through it.

And, like he always says, “Do something nice for somebody, that shit will come back to you.”


Check out SafeTdriver’s YouTube channel and find his beautiful hemp work here:

MMJ Peanut Butter Fudge


This past week I attempted to create a medicated peanut butter fudge without using processed sugar. Using what ingeredients I had in my house I came up with a quick, simple, and healthy fudge version that not only is effective as medication but also packed with nutrients.

I used a CO2 extracted cannabis oil that I know had been tested for quality and impurities. I like cooking with CO2 oils because they are already activated and can easily be added to any dish, drink, or even taken right under the tongue.

MMJ Peanut Butter Fudge

1/2C cacao nibs

1/2C hemp hearts

1C coconut milk

1t vanilla

6 medjool dates

1/4 cup maca powder

1g CO2 cannabis concentrate (option for MMJ version)

3/4C peanut butter

1/4C coconut oil

1/3C chopped walnuts

1) Blend cacao nibs, hemp hearts, coconut milk, vanilla, maca powder, and dates until smooth.

2) Gently heat the peanut butter and coconut oil in a double boiler. Remove from heat and add the cannabis concentrate to the warm oils. Mix well.

3) Combine both mixtures then add walnuts.

4) Place in a 6″x9″ pan and chill in fridge for 15 minutes. Cut into pieces and place into freezer until firmly set.

These turned out to be a pleasant way to medicate. Not sugary but with a rich and fudgy texture and effective daytime mmj potency. Perfect with a cup of tea.

It takes serious diligence to take care of yourself when you cannot eat like everybody else. So, for everybody out there who has to make their own medibles to avoid processed ingredients, cheers to you.


Using Cannabis When You Might Lose An Eye

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This weekend at the cannabis farmer’s market I struck up a conversation with a guy who made me appreciate a little bit more what we have here in Washington. He relocated himself a few years ago to this state from Arkansas specifically to be able to use medical cannabis. Medicinal cannabis does not exist at this time in Arkansas and even if he could get cannabis it is frequently from Mexico and poor quality compared to the specific high-grade strains that he can have safe access to here. He told me that he moved here 90% so he could have access to medical marijuana and 10% because of the visual beauty of the state.

It would seem that visual beauty is a major bonus for a man who has been dealing with severe eye issues ever since he was 12.  That particular Christmas Eve, he had a black light blow up in his face, severely damaging his eye, and forever affecting the way he sees the world. Since that night he has endured lens implants, cornea transplants, years of doctors appointments, pharmaceutical medications, and lets not leave out the 22 days that he literally had to stare at the ground 24/7 so his eye could heal after one of his most recent surgeries. Now, at age 29 this man finds himself with mounting medical bills, a limiting visual and physical disability, more surgery on his eye, or removing it altogether leaving him with one eye and the option of a patch or a fake eye. Heavy stuff.


I asked him how cannabis helps him. He told me that when he smokes certain strains of cannabis, such as Sour Diesel or Cinex, the pressure above and around his eyes is relieved and released. He uses indica strains help to relieve the facial and neck strain and he has been able to use cannabis medibles after surgery so he wouldn’t have to use as much of the pharmaceutical drugs that negatively affect his digestive system. Above all else, one of the most important things that cannabis does is to help him have moments where he is able to forget about his eye. It helps him navigate socially when getting out to be able to look at the people in the eyes and in turn have people see his eyes.

Now, if somebody from across the room had been watching our conversation it is unlikely that they would have known that we were perfect strangers talking about somebody’s eye possibly getting removed. We were laughing and cracking jokes between the serious sentences about his situation. It turns out there are a lot of good eye jokes out there. 

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I sat in that conversation appreciating another human who is able to find humor in the chronic darkness that they have to carry around daily and still face the world with a smile. I appreciated that he was also able to sit through my horrible jokes like, “Which one is your good eye? (hahaha) ” Really, TwiceBaked? Nothing about that is funny.

I walked away from our conversation feeling uplifted, grateful for only my own problems, and thinking about where I might be able to create more humor, positivity, and lightness to deal with my chronic challenges.

I asked him what he might want to say to the people of  Washington if I wrote about him and he told me he hopes people here stop at least once a day to take in and appreciate the visual beauty that we have here in the Evergreen State.

I couldn’t agree more.



How Are You Using Raw Cannabis?

This week I was sent a number of really great questions from a reader who asked me to elaborate on my raw cannabis usage. I would love to elabortate!!

Question #1: How do you keep it fresh and store it? I store it in the fridge in an airtight container with a paper towel to absorb moisture. I also freeze the juice or full pulp made in  my blender in ice cube trays. The cubes work great in my smoothies.

Question #2: How long can you store it for? In the fridge, 3 days maximum. In the freezer, people tell me it begins to degrade in there after just 7-10 days and others who say it is fine in there for about a month. If you have it, use it up!

Question #3: How much do you consume each day? Right now I am trying to consume about 1-2 oz fresh raw cannabis material. I was aiming for the suggested 7-14 leaves/day but when somebody told me they measured their raw dose with a kitchen scale I went out and bought myself a scale so I have another way to measure. Not all leaves weigh the same. Also, the more I take it, the less I measure it- I can just eyeball how much I need.

Question #4: What plant parts are you consuming raw and in what quantities? Right now I am consuming leaves and stems (see question#3 for how much) but when I have access to it I will also consume raw young buds (maybe an amount equal to my baby finger, not much).

Question #5: Do you take it once a day or break it up into multiple doses? I do both. I prefer to take it first thing in the morning and be done with it. Sometimes, though I will make an extra serving for later in the day. I know people who say they benefit from a morning and afternoon dose but my personal experience so far has been that I need to get it at least once a day.

Thank you, Mainah, for such awesome questions. I appreciate you joining me on this journey.

Have an awesome day!



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