Using Cannabis for Depression

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Talking about depression is not on the top of my list of things that I like to do. Even just writing about it right now is making me uncomfortable but I still feel compelled to get out that this is one of the most amazing things that cannabis has helped me with on top of the chronic pain that I deal with because of my spinal issues.

If you were to ask the people in my life to describe me they would use words like “bubbly, optimistic, happy, or funny.” Most people don’t know about my very dark side, the depressed one that dwells in a secret closet under a very heavy black cloud. I prefer not to share this part of me to the world. But the reality is that I do deal with depression and anxiety which I feel is largely created from experiencing chronic physical pain and discomfort for so long.

On an even deeper note, which I also prefer not to linger on, I was brought into this world by parents who were newly grieving the loss of a child and suffering from depression themselves. They always put on a happy face and functioned like life was perfect, but let’s be honest here, children pick up emotions and in my case can even absorb them physically. So, I know a thing or two about feeling depressed and then repressing what you are feeling so you don’t affect the world around you in a negative way.

I have never taken prescription drugs for depression or anxiety but I have been using cannabis specifically for my scoliotic spine and with that experiencing the added bonus of relieving my depressed feelings. When I look back I can see that I totally have been using cannabis during the blue times in my life, I just would never have admitted to it that at the time.

To be really honest this is where I have been feeling kind of foggy (and oddly guilty) on whether I am using cannabis solely for pain management but also recreationally. I have always associated the getting happy part of marijuana use as recreational largely because that was its purpose as a recreational user until I got my medical cannabis recommendation. I mean, is it ok for me to use cannabis just to brighten my mood when I am feeling blue? Does that mean I am taking advantage of my medicine? Is there something wrong with me that I can’t just easily choose to be happy and calm?

The compassionate (and logical) side of me has realized that it is totally ok for me to also be using cannabis for the depression and anxiety. It kind of all goes together. Pain gets worse when you are depressed and stressed. I know that first hand. For me, depression has nothing to do with the fact that I have an awesome life and I am grateful for every single person, thing, and experience in it.

Cannabis is simply one tool that I use to keep the dark clouds parted so that I can see sunshine too. I also use regular exercise, a healthy diet, meditation, a practice of gratitude, journaling, and positive peers to keep my spirits lifted. Add cannabis to the mix and I become much more equipped to handle what this little body of mine is throwing at me on a daily basis.

There is no shame in saying you deal with depression or anxiety but it can feel that way when the person you are talking to either does not relate or is not open to listening to you talk about it. There is also no shame in saying that you use a safe, natural plant with no risky side effects that not only relieves your pain but also keeps your spirit lifted so you can experience life on a happier level.

-TwiceBaked

6 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Kat on July 22, 2014 at 11:38 pm

    I am so greatful to have found you in my cbd search. You have no idea the impact your words can have on a stranger having a hard time. Thank you thank you for reminding me that it’s ok to medicate myself back to health in all areas. I’m enjoying all your posts but felt very moved to comment on this one. I love the reminder that the sun is still there. It’s just above the clouds today, but always there. It really shifted my perspective! Any guilt that I may have experienced medicating with cannabis for depression and pain has all vanished after reading this. I love your gratitude, your humility, your passion and your willingness to share what you’ve learned with all of us! Ooh, and the recipes are amazing!! Keep it up Twicebaked, you’re making the world a much better place 🙂

  2. Thank you for those words. You should never feel bad about relieving your pain or finding happiness despite depression. Happy is healthy. Thank you for sharing and sending encouraging comments. xo…TwiceBaked

  3. “… but it can feel that way when the person you are talking to either does not relate or is not open to listening to you talk about it.” Not being understood a primary reason a life alone with the critters seems most suitable for moi. Much less lonley.

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